Illusions`______

i'm so messed up

2004-11-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

the days are so weird now,since my grandma is in hospital, i feelso empty, i dun even noe wad to do since she is in hospital, my whole life'smessed up, i had so much to say but when i see this page, all the tings which i wanna say is gone,alexa has change her site to http://ch3rished.blogdrive.com/, so sry, i dun even feel like bloggin... but i still hafta continue

i totally hate the song Mr.James Dean in Hilary Duff new album, Fly, i hate the way she sings now, Grrr i dunno why, she is so damn fr4eakkkinnnn bitch.... GRRRR the way she sings,and uses the word rebel,which totally turns me off, now her songs irk me... wearin those black nail polish, I WAN THE OLD HILARY BACK, she so awfully like a rock chick wannabe, i hate it, get me the naive innocent back... grrr.... geez... that song really sucks, grrr,

i wanna buy the LOTR silver color ring in taka,moshi moshi,the ring very nice, i lyk... really got thiose type of encryption there,

i'm still feelin so lost... why is this such a nightmare, this is freakin me out... grrr....how i wish nth hadd happened at all... i hope my granny is alrite... i lost my grandpa at the tender age of... ummm...haizzz when i was pri 2, i dun wan tplose another dear kin anymore....how i wished i joined st john and concoct some immortality pills, haizz

i shall conclude here by tellin u guys this * hintin* there is this book in orchard ,kinokuniya, Marvel Encyclopedia : X-Men, so,remember, itcost SGD$44.50,there is this date 25/4/some year, which is a special date, remember hor...u noe wad i want

Band Totally Sucks.

2004-10-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

this is awful. heard that there is a FREAKING band camp and my leader is Ryan Cheok, Those unfamiliar, its the bad ass guy playin the trumpet.... i guess i'm juz down on my luck. WHy muz the freaking band come up wit such a stupid activity. i hate it. if it was i was in st john and wit wei ren justin they all, i wouldnt even fret about it. but band, i only noe choong eu and justin mark, then hor, somomore is not team ourselves one, its teacher choose one, then somemore 3 dae 2 nite camp... how band can this get ? i'll guess i'll haf to find means to not make it there, like : sprain an ankle, get kidnapped, get a vacation, get a car crash, got pushed down a river and get contaminated etc. wadeva it is, I DUN WAN TO GO BAND CAMP, anyway, today is monday and there is band, and i'm not going coz today is promotion day. its promotion day and they want us to go, they SIAO ar,,, so i'm not goin... everybody is not goin to skool and band hafta go, SIAO, i guess is the band major wan to cover up his mistake ... so i dun give a damn...

walau eh...

2004-10-13T03:32:00.000+08:00

walau... tml still got band... siao... l8er still hafta fall in... did i eva say how much i hated fallin in and crap... this totally sucks ... stupid... why did i eva joined BAND... TELL ME !!! &#@^$&@^... ya noe ... today we played bbal... well... not EXACTLY we... saw some guy justin told me ... his name is ham ham/hamtaro/hamster/gay guy. made me rather uncomfortable... WHY ? coz even a ahem ahem * glups* not being a homophobic here, gay guy looks betta than me !!!. i rather change myself wit him... i fink he was tryin to touch one guy called owen's dick i fink... tt's so corny, tt GUY (not tt gay guy slash owen ) was so cocky * hope HE doesnt see this *so arrogant... what to do... ppl HANDSOME slash cute slash pro wat.... wat to do... life is soooo damn unfair... gotta few question to ask... why hor, why ppl r born ugly slash hideous ar ? why r ppl born skinny and NO, i do not haf anorexia nervosa or bulima... i tried to grow fat... REALLY i did, but i couldnt... dunno why... and i'm pale... malnutrition... frm eatin JUNK FOOD !!! whats wrong wit me eh... some ppl lyk HIM is born so freakin 'handsome slash pro slash cute' so stupid.... can i change my looks wit tt ham ham slash hamtaro slash hamster slash gay guy PLS.... or rather, gimme a new look at least... sumtin lyk erm... i wouldnt mind aaron carter bird-like face... brad pitt eva sexy look ( i wanna be him, coz there got j. aniston. ) or even look .. at least lyk someone... any oridinary look can liao.. but at least more handsome than my face lah... and i WUN go for plastic surgery.... wat if the nose i make drop out leh ( haha ).... maybe this is the longest post eva written butta tml got chinese.n i h8 chinese... maybe i would get 1/20 for my hanzhi again AND relive history. I NEED A MIRACLE to get at least 10/20 for hanzhi... i really wan to do well in my studies, you know... i REALLY WAN... why m i born so stupidddd ar ? why ar ? some ppl haf talents, lyk alexa, she noes sooo much bout web design... n i dun even haf talents.. she's good in flute, wad bout me... f-horn lousiest player... this is so dumb...
WHY ?

Grrrr

2004-10-12T01:30:00.000+08:00

i'm so terribly pisssed, science was so difficult i haf my gut feelin tt i would fail. science mathes etc AND chinese is lyk OMG, had a tuffle wit tt wei ren yesterday, wat a bat start. the world is based on looks. did i want to haf pimples ? did i wanted to look so terribly hideous ? who doesnt wan to look handsome ? tell me who. GRRR *^#*^&^#@$(^@), wat the heck ... i called him a freakin big fat slimy warthog, shouldda called him MORE, lyk a slug, sloggish,swine, GRRR, i'm always liddat. cant find the rite words when i'm angry... wat the hell is wrong wit me and my life

lalalala

2004-10-06T08:27:00.000+08:00

today had geog exam, i wud be lying if i said the geog test is easy. today, saw some freaky msgs tt was sent to friendster acc 'Taiwan Sucks', i wonder if there r ppl out there who really appreciate real music. oh, i forgot, a common trademark is they all write lyk ThIs, the word will often be the fucker word, but i forgot, wat can u expect frm a society that is cruder than oil, no sense of embarassment at all, wat a pity, still got one sicko 'male' cr8 acc on tt GAY Zax wang, somemore dare say is 5566 fan, wat a disgrace, it's totally gross when i learned tt he is so BOLIAOZZ to do this type of crap, heard taiwanese ppl burn singapore flag and insult us. guess is they all jealous we everything betta than them. no corrupt officials, not too many black triad society, good healthcare, high-tech, no high crime rate, AND, NO earthquakes. so far, i guess we're way better than Taiwan.

WOOOHOOOO

2004-10-02T05:12:00.000+08:00

tts so cool, today i mean, children day. but i'm not a child nemore... today was fun, well, at leats the after part, i played bball wit gabriel they all. cool huh ? lol, jkjk, then hanged out wit john, well, played some shit monkey thingie... then so, i went home... TOODLELOO

My Life

2004-09-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

been finkin bout it for DAYS... nv went online, dunno how many days since i blogged.... seriously, even alexa needed to get a life, wat bout me ? i'm gettin sick and tired bout school... i fink it ^@&*$^&*^%$&*@#... it's lyk, i cant stand them and they cant stand me./... try havin a brother who get higher grades than u in the same class, it totally sucks, but, who cares, been finkin bout where i stand, what m i actually, cant seem to gte an answer... life's so enigmatic... not lyk alexa one... got so many good frens there...why cant we still be at KHS ? where at leats i hav frens... seriously, i need to hav my brain washed... hardly noe wat the hell i'm tolkin bout, i;m tolkin rot again.... =.^" aw man.... i hate life... exams r frekin comin too....

SEC 1 HENRY SUCKS TO THE CORE, MAY THEY BE CURSED INTO ETERNAL DAMNATION AND ROT IN HELL

2004-09-28T10:44:00.000+08:00

today went alright though exams are approachin lyk a menacing disease lyk... a plaque ? hmmm, have to study liao lorzzzz, so cham ... muz focus... i have to return one shit library book leh... dunno put where liao, shit...i tot i return liaozzz, now i so broke still have to pay... sure bankrupt one... i feel that i and HIM are growin more distant, but i have a joy in my heart, a joy that i m goin to leave Sec 1 H , do u noe how much i h8 tt class and the ppl there ? lets strat down the row...
I HATE RANDRALL, glen, brennan,JOEL,yee chuan,CLEMENT,DARREN,NICHOLAS,KENNY,JIA ANG,KEN,MARC,JUE CUN,TING HUI,JEREMY. tts all... does it anount to half the class ? now u noe how much 1 henry sucks I FREAKINGLY HATE 1 HENRY AND ALL THE PPL INSIDE

YAY

2004-09-25T08:41:00.000+08:00

i luv fridays. FRIDAYS always, start of weekends, aha aha, :D. taday got scolded by Mrs.Chia again. MRS CHIA REALLY HATES JUSTIN NG. i wonder why, it was obviously my fault that i asked him a question and I M SUPPOSED to get scolded more heavily BUT it was him. how can it be, justin said bcoz durin Parent-Teacher Day his dad *raised his voice a little, thats why Mrs Chia hate him so, For Christmas, Justin hope Mrs.Chia will rot in hell, lolzzz, i can't believe MRs.Chia told me 'Weizhe,u should understand why i scold u, right ? " But Told Justin this, "u are childish, always blames it on other people" Geez, this is nuts, i wonder the other teacher got tell her MY BEHAVIOUR in other teacher class ?, that'll make her believe Justin is not the only bad one, I HATE those FREAKIN adults of MARIS STELLA HIGH SCHOOL, THE FREAKING STUDUNTS OF MARIST STELLA HIGH, those FREAKIN BASTARDS, yesterday had a quarrel wit gabriel over *an issue but today that FUCKIN BASTARD chia jue cun, *i noe i dun want to use fucking/name other ppl unless necessary but he forced me to * that bastard want me to "relaxxxx", Geez,, why is he so kaypoh, is that any of his freakin business, i TOTALLY h8 him, who the hell does he fink he is and poke into other ppls business, that freaking nosy parker, WHO THE HELL DOES HE FREAKIN FINK HE IS, A NOSY PARKER ?

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2004-09-22T21:26:00.000+08:00

today was pathetic, got scolded by liew in the morn, ITS THE FREAKING FIRST 10 MINS OF HER FREAKING PERIOD.... I DUN GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE, I WILL NOT GET SCOLDED BY THE TEACHERS ANYMORE.... MR RAGU,MISS LIEW,MR POH, MR CHAM ETC ETC... every dae ... this sucks.... i m not goin to take tis anymore, i dun wan to talk ever again. freak... i noe, life sucks

Hilarious...

2004-09-21T21:05:00.000+08:00

as expected wat heaven will gimme, everyting all goes wrong for me, the wrong life, wrong character everyting and today was no surprise. the only ting tt went rite was tt i passed my chinese. during CME ( moral ed ) lesson, i got scolded by ragu bcoz i said the word " hilarious " to justin very loudly. i got punished. i hardly noe wat happen until i found out that ragu told a corny joke n i said hilarious juz in time his sentence finish. wat a 'conincidence'. freak lah, i was punished by standing up and having to laugh for one min, i said one 'ha' then turned angry ( that was when i found out ) then i got asked to get out of class to talk to mr ragu and he found out bout my piercin.... music was no betta, we had an exam n we had to got out and sing... i got out, sang the first sentence, and got back... WHY ? the teacher ask me not to sing liao coz she say " no need sing liao, sure fail one' i only haf one question, DO I REALLY SING THAT BAD ?